A Selection of True Awakening Experiences Part III – Awakened by Grief and ascended in love


Awakened by Grief and ascended in love



     I was asked to take part in a writing adventure once again


by Barbara Franken, a wonderful lady with a beautiful blog.  You


can view her inspiring website at:




     I was asked to write about my experiences which affected me and


which awakened and ascended me on my shortstop journey here on


earth. You can read similar stories with the link below which


provide glimpses into the awakening and the ascending process of


other people. There will be a story to read every day in October


on her blog which you can follow with the link:/




Awakened in silence


     There are many events that precipitate one’s journey and its


growth which occurs to evolve one’s consciousness.   I was


painfully shy and kept to myself in silence due to trauma.  One


incident taught me to have confidence in Spirit.  One night, in


particular, I was working and I had finished my duties at three


in the morning.  With no transportation and three miles from home,


I began to walk.  During my walk, I got an eerie feeling I


was going to be murdered.  I looked behind me and a man was


quickly walking towards me.  I was in transition of leaving my


religion and waiting for another movement which would be


compatible with my awakening.  I looked behind me and the


man was getting closer.  I asked Spirit for protection.  I


looked behind me again and the man started to pick up the pace.


When I turned around there was a big dog on my right side.  The


man crossed the street and went into a wooded area.  The dog


followed me to my house.  I went inside to fetch a dog snack


when I came out the dog was gone.  I was left mystified.


Little by little, on my journey, I felt like I was being taken


care of, loved and protected.  In my silence, I was awakened


similar to a dormant seed in darkness ready to germinate and


ascended in silence where things grow.



Awakened by love


     A blissful reunion of souls occurred when I met my partner.


In relationships, every couple has disagreements which are


insignificant.  We had two arguments in the 26 years of being


together but nothing earth shattering whereas it did not harm


our relationship and after the arguments, we belly laughed.


     We spiritually grew together and we were inseparable.  We both


agreed that we were inextricably tied to each other and this bond


preceded our incarnations.  Our ties also bound us to our own


crossovers and beyond.  Perhaps we can be deemed infinity




     Our lives together were spent awakening one another


about world events and we had many incidences which left us in


awe on our spiritual path and these experiences were pivotal to


our spiritual growth.


     My belief and my partner’s belief are everyone ascends in


their own time.  This life or next life etc.  In the ascension or


the awakening process, no one is ahead or behind us.  We are all


on the same journey awakening at our own pace or awakening with


experiences that are before us unwillingly or willingly.  After


all, we are all brothers and sisters.  My partner has awakened


me to a newer sense of loving me and with others in a new way and


vice versa.  My partner taught me that every human has a story


and every life is precious. During this awakening, we became more


sensitive to and a recognition that we are all one. We also


recognized the importance love makes in this world and this love



is a catalyst that changes people. I ascended with more love being


with my partner and I know there will be more ascension experiences


involving love to look forward to.  Love is all there ever was and


love is all there is.


Awakened by Grief


     On March 29, 2016, my world came harshly crumbling down.


My partner suffered a stroke.  I spent eight hours at the


hospital and I wanted a shower and to have a bite to eat.  The


last words I heard was, “I love you and you are the best thing


that has happened to me.”  I returned an hour later and what met


me was my partner who was non-responsive.  My heart sank.  The


prognosis was bleak said the doctor.  They could cut half of his


brain out but there was no guarantee the paralysis would


disappear and my partner could still end up drooling in a care


facility.  I had two tough decisions to make and one was to let


my partner go and the second was to sign an order not to




     The next day there was a feeling of agitation in the room


(I felt this with other crossovers as well.)  as my partner’s


crossover was imminent and this was another birthing process to


the other side.  After the crossover, there was such peace in


the room.  This turned out to be the most painful event on my


journey.  When we die we do ascend – we have no choice?  An


ascension out of the body?  However, it all depends on your




     I was about to embark on my own spiritual birthing process


unknown to me at that time. Many said time heals all wounds.


I did not want to hear this and I wanted to scream at them.


Only two friends said, “I am here for you, I don’t know what


you are going through.  If you want to talk I am here.”


Understanding and compassion were shown.  Two people stayed


by my side constantly and still do.  They are both beings of


light sent to my darkness which I had found myself in.


I had to put my 3 cats up for adoption and one I had to put to


sleep because of health issues.  She was my soul cat and again,


more lost.


I lost my house.  This has taught me that losses are not


permanent.  People departed and pets are always with you in


spirit and material things can be replaced.  If we listen to


signs Spirit is giving us or leading us to a breadcrumb trail


then the caring and the sense of being of being taken care of


is felt.  After two years a switch went off within me and I felt


lighter than I had ever felt.  I knew the grief had lifted and


when I looked back, it had been almost two years of the dark


night of the soul.  I had grown and I can think of my partner


with a smile and soon we will be reunited.  I lost 11 friends


and my sister in the two and a half year since my partner passed.


I miss my partner terribly, also, my friends and my sister.


Grief has awakened me on this journey and when I look back on


every experience, every event, no matter what the circumstances


are, there will always be a spider web of awakening and an


ascension to behold. I now feel joy in my heart.  I enjoy life


again.  I came to know that Grief is a gift and that my


partner’s death was also a gift to me.  I was awakened by grief.


I have evolved Spiritually and there is a Spiritual


maturity in my life.  I knew I had also ascended with love knowing


my partner was with me all along.  When we awaken only then will


we ascend.  Below is a poem I wrote titled, “Grief is a gift”


and another, “I felt your touch.”




Grief is a gift


There is a heart in heart connection.


Please grab onto my soul and don’t let’s go.


Forever I ask from you to stay all the while by my side.


My essence flies with a flutter from you.


We are going on a sojourn of memories when you were walking the




But there is a time when the sky expresses my tears.


And I’m comforted by the cradle of love.


Rocking me into reality.


You left my spirit shattered.


I was a lost sheep wandering aimlessly.


Separation justified my heartache.


Painting itself into my world.


Nothing can stop this journey.


I was so in love.


Our lives burning in the essence,


Of the flame,


We started so long ago.


By the moon’s charming ways.


We were captivated by the pull that lulled our adventure to be




Sorrow is a bridge I traveled upon.


And with time the sunshine made itself present.


The tears dried up and replaced with fondness and with a smile.


But there was light through the darkness.


And again, I walk the road of happiness.


Although the ache in my heart remains,


And softly beats of missing you.


I realize then that Grief had become a gift.



This is another poem I wrote 2 days after my partner’s death


I felt your touch


I felt your touch upon my face.

A hand that is no more.

It was only goosebumps from the other side.

You were the half of my heart that made me whole.

A sanctuary upon a sanctuary, a sanctuary of Eden

As I sensed you in my garden.

My haven you are welcome to visit.

Trying to tell me what it was like in the afterlife.

But secrets kept between us – never – except for this one.

And they keep moving the moon around me all night.

I felt your touch upon my face.

A hand that is no more.

It was only goosebumps from the other side.

Our souls were twined in a mysterious way, a magical way.

Something unique, something to cherish.

I’ve cried all my dry tears and now they tumble wet.

I’m so tired of crying tears of memories.

As I write you a song scribbled on my essence.

One of sorrow, one of pain.

Missing the lips, I kissed goodnight.

And the misery of my soul is where I am lost.

I felt your touch upon my face.

A hand that is no more.

It was only goosebumps from the other side.

The flame still flickers in my heart for my turn to go home.

To frolic in the ether of a new beginning with you.

I fervently wait for this day.

It can’t come soon enough.

The day is unknown to me, another well-kept secret.

Like twinkling stars that are out of reach.

As I also see the twinkling of your life that you had here on earth.

All that matters is when you touch my soul.

As I die a little bit more inside.

I felt your touch upon my face.

A hand that is no more.

It was only goosebumps from the other side.


Please read Jan’s post on awakening and ascension which will be posted October 2, 2018.  Follow this link









52 thoughts on “A Selection of True Awakening Experiences Part III – Awakened by Grief and ascended in love

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  2. How wonderful to look back on so many stages of our awakening/ascension… having life give us so many experiences… all for each to remember we are love, we are one with all and we can trust we are in the most perfect to embrace new experiences to expand our consciousness.

    I thankyou so much dear Joseph for sharing with us all your most treasured experiences that have made you the wonder of love and light you are today and in turn can inspire and support fellow men to open their hearts wide❤️ much love Barbara c

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    1. Thank you Barbara for your kind words and insights. They are much appreciated. I agree in all that you say about life’s little stepping stones and bigger stepping stones. We do survive trauma and later when the trauma matures we do have our own personal insights and healing. I am still amazed that my partner’s death was a gift to me in inexplicable ways as well. It all depends how you view life. Being a medium it was helpful that I know death is a continuance and we truly do not die. They may not be physical but they are always with us. Be well and stay smiling ❤

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  3. That really touched my heart, Joseph. It was beautifully written and gave us a look into the love you shared with your partner. How hard life has been since then and I grieve with you. I also hope that life gets brighter and that we all meet again in an afterlife. Much love K x

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    1. Yes, we will meet in the afterlife for sure. As my article said I came to see grief as a gift and that my partner’s death was also a gift. There are times a memory, image, song will bounce me back to yesteryears and the tears flow. I do not grieve anymore except for those incidents. Thank you for your kind words they are always appreciated. We shall celebrate the crossover with joy and not with grieving. Be well my friend.

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      1. I had been thinking about you because I had the strangest dream about my mother. In this surreal world she knew my dear friend in Texas (she had died before we moved here). My mum was telling me that my friend had taken her out for a lovely Texas breakfast with steak. In the dream I asked my mum if she had eaten steak but she said no because it was rare. Then she shared that my friend would be okay with rare steak because she had worming powder in her purse! Apart from the weirdness of it, it was delightful to have my friend meet my mum in my dream world.

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      2. Yes, dreams can be weird. Some I can attest to in my book I wrote with my partner being a medium. Strange some of them. If I don’t write them down right away they are gone. Your mom might be trying to communicate with you. ❤

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  4. Sue Dreamwalker commented on A Selection of True Awakening Experiences Part III – Awakened by Grief and ascended in love

    Awakened by Grief and ascended in love I was asked to take part in a writing adventure once again …

    It was beautiful to ready Joseph of you and your partners inseparability and oneness you felt together and not just in this one life time.
    I have no doubts that great bond of love you both felt for each other proceeded life times of incarnations. Such are the deep bonds of love we carry.

    And I agree with you, that everyone is given the chance to ascend in their own time. And I believe that the two of you chose to wake one another up in this lifetime to do just that.
    All unfolds at the right time, and there is a process by which we are triggered in our remembering of who we really are. And I agree with you, no one is ahead or behind us, and we are all of us progressing through the layers to return to the true God Source of which we are all part.
    In an Eternal existence Time is not relevant only to what we humans have interpreted it to be.

    Your words about love being a catalyst that changes people so true.. And yes Love is all we originally were until we became enshrined within this matrix of Karma..
    But I do feel that wheel is now ready to stop turning and I sense my own urgency of preparing my soul for the next journey off this planet..

    I so enjoyed the story of you walking at night being followed by what you felt was some unsavoury man… That Call out for protection and help I feel was heard from on high..
    And the Dog manifested, be it angel guardian or whatever was no coincidence..
    I have read similar things in the Chicken Soup stories of such angelic beings stepping in to protect in times of great need.. So I have no doubts at all it was there to protect you.

    The traumatic night of your partners stroke and the decision faced.
    I know from experiencing several passing’s at close proximity the Peace felt at the time of their crossing.. And I talked my own Dad over to the otherside and felt I had been given a privilege to be able to do so.

    I am pleased you have close friends who understood you at the time of your loss.. Often people are at a loss how to deal with death and dying.. So distance themselves rather than just being there if needed..

    And I am pleased that switch finally clicked as the grief lifted.. You world lost a lot of friends and family in a short space of time.. You had much to cope with.

    Grief is a natural emotion which has to be navigated through, and each of us strides at our own pace through our various experiences.
    Love however is the bond that ties us eternally together and when we understand that all things in this world is temporary, and that we are eternal beings traveling through our experiences in this material realm of duality.. When we awaken to this fact and see the one most permanent thing that binds all of us within that eternity is LOVE.. We wake up to the gift of our hearts..

    I loved your poems and especially the last one,, ” I felt your touch ” …

    It too gave me Goosebumps Joseph.

    A beautiful piece of writing from your heart my friend..
    Sending continued love and well wishes my friend..
    Hugs Sue 💖🌈💖

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  5. Ok, this is the third time of erasing my message. Soulmate for better lack of word as one cannot define our relationship by a limited vocabulary that we have. Love is all there ever was and love is all there is. Yes, people ascend at their own pace.
    Yes, the dog story is a poignant story and I have another one that is also poignant and others many that are not as poignant,. For sure the dog story was from a god given source. It left me mystified and to this day I can still feel some of the emotions I felt that was whispered into my soul.
    The crossovers I have experienced were interesting and the common thread was there was a little agitation in the room like a birth was taken place and when the second they crossed over there was peace and they were free.
    We are so on point with what went on in my life as you were able to bring back to me that you knew what I was saying and that you understood. Thank you for that.
    Aww! the poems yes I feel your touch is my favorite one and was read at the celebration of life. There were tears heard and when the poem was read you heard the crowd gasp. There was another poem read that my partner wrote 2 weeks prior to death which people gasped at the end as well. It was named night song and it is about wolves.

    I hope your Tuesday has spiritual gifts to offer you and thank you for being you.
    Ha third time of post vanishing in the air. I got this one done.

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    1. Your stories sound that they would be very interesting Joseph.. And I have no doubts at all the poetry of your partner and yours made everyone gasp… I am sure his life celebration was one of many happy memories tinged with such deep sadness of his departing..
      But we both share that same belief and Knowing… That he is only a whisper away.. And will be forever by your side.

      Thank you my Tuesday was relaxing as is today.. my knitting is getting finished and so are some chores around the home that needed doing..
      Have a beautiful day yourself Joseph.. And Thank you so much for your perseverance in getting the message comments across..
      I have a habit of hitting the clear tab when typing when i go to capitals.. So now I write often in my notes section and cut and paste.. That way the comment is saved..
      I learn my my mistakes, but then I still often type like now straight into WP comments.. 🙂

      Take care.. And thank you again for the remarkable post you contributed..
      Blessings Sue ❤

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      1. You’re welcome and thank you for commenting. Sounds like you have busied yourself. Some of my experiences would make others to them look like I have four heads. My partner was there for some of them so I was believed in others. I will try in notes to do my answers. Thanks for being you ❤

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      2. If we ever got together that would be 8 heads. I am sure you would ad to to physcal phenomena. I only told my partner once and he said he had heard of this phenomena but never encountered anybody that experienced it. Be well my friend

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    1. Thank you Gina. Yes I cherish those years together and came to the place after the grief I had ascended in love. It is like any other person as you know. You’re fine and then something or someone triggers a memory and it was like yesterday the loss and grief are felt anew. Everyone has their own time and I honour that. Hugs.

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      1. yes those triggers can be devastating. and as you say it all takes time, which can be so kind and then at times painfully long and slow. I am confident of one thing, we will all get there one day. we just need to rely on those who can nurture us and stay away from those who can’t. hugs back and a smile for you too!

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      2. I don’t think that small ache will ever leave my soul. It might but not at this moment. Important to surround oneself with people that as you say can nurture us. I think in time our pain will ease. I remember thinking of my partner 24/7. I think of my partner everyday but not as often as I busied ;myself with writing. Yes, we will get there some day.

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  7. Your energy and words have a way of finding me when needed most.. yesterday 10/10 was my brother’s first birthday after his passing last December… how grief hits me at times or maybe it’s the love we share …either way the bitter sweetness is a precious memoir in my journey…
    thank you Joseph, for light shed by your tender sharing…

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  8. Hello; These poems really touched me as well, I can only imagine the grief, and pain that you had to endure; this brings back alot of emotions; as well; Its as if, I can feel your grief, while reading it, as if I am there with you; and thanks for sharing your well written expressions, in your poems with us;)) Your word press friend; Deb

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    1. Hello my friend. Thank you for taking the journey of my past with me. Yes, it was painful and as friends passed on as well it did not stop with my sister passing away this June. I was able to hold to my spiritualist views and became aware that a death is a gift to us no matter the pain it creates for us. Great things I am destined for as I prepare for my move from the east of Canada to the west where I called out west my home for 27 years. I Writing a book about the event of crossing over before and after and also the pain that person leaves when they cross over. I hope you are doing well. You have a lovely site


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    1. Thank you PR. Any beautiful comments still won’t hide the fact that you need a new polish and buff of your hooves and horns and a brush of your tail. Have you considered a perm for your tail? Spa day. At the end of my journey there still remains an ache in my spirit. I don’t know if that will ever go away. I guess time will tell.


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